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pile of good lessons

buildingcarissa fox19 Comments

house sketch

it almost doesn't seem real.
like it hasn't happened yet.
or it did... but just wasn't quite the experience we thought it would be.
yeah that.

i thought i'd get the "ugly" out first...
out of the way.
done.
it's taken me... since before we moved in... until now... to LET IT GO.
and Lord knows i still have my days.

i know lots of y'all know...
i pretty much wear everything on my sleeve...
God made me chatty & open like that...
:)
well... i want to be open just like that about our building experience.

the lessons we've learned...
they're big... they stack up deep... as far as you can see.
and just that...
they are lessons!
many uncomfortable... joyful... downright painful...
but oh hOw thankful we are to have experienced it ALL.

the whoo hooo jump up & down "that's exactly what i envisioned"...
"not sure i like that... could we try this instead?"...
"what in the world was he thinking?"...
"where IS our builder anyway?"...
oh the color choices...
"what in the world was i thinking?"...
who knew white could have so many shades...
tears...
waiting...
promises broken...
blue tape everywhere...
ummm... "i wish i would have chosen the other"...
workers up in our hair nine months after we moved in...
still finishing... or nOT...
sadness...
happiness...
gut wrenching disappointment...
frustration...
anger...
triumph...
lessons.

we can't go back...
switch things around...
choose someone else...
make it how it was supposed to be... make it "perfect"...
like my hubby always says "it is what it is".

from the wise words of the nester...
"it doesn't have to be perfect to be beautiful".
i remind OCD self that all the time.
:)
it helps.

you know she's right.
it doesn't have to be perfect.
thank goodness!
perfect is way too hard to dO & bE anyway!

with our building experience...
we might not be able to change much of the "wrong" that was done...
but by golly we can move forward & continue making it our home...
make it beautiful.

we're together...
healthy...
happy...
BLESSED !

i imagine as i jump back into this blogging thing...
i'll have to jump around a bit...
so much has happened!
my goodness... i was scrolling through my iphone clicks from the last year...
it was enough to make me cry.
and realize i really wish i would have kept up.
oh looky there... another lesson.
:)
i'm learning lOts lately!

house
now we get to actually walk through the sketched door.
how cool is that.
that door (more on that later) is for sure a favorite!

this was our first drawing to tangible house we've built.
and after all the roller coaster hoopla...
i think we'd do it all over again.
ha!
after all... we've got all those learned lessons piled up.

thankful climb

creating, sharingcarissa fox17 Comments

it's that time again!
time that we start filling out our "thankfuls".
making note... taking note... of all those things that we are so grateful.
i have posted about this before here and here.


as much as i wanted to drive up the mountain for a big 'ol branch...
had a vision of what i wanted... it just didn't happen in time.
our trusty ladder... that i love so... will get to be dressed with our notes again.


i did make a minor adjustment to her... the ladder.
i saw this "art tape" at the office supply store (oh the fun with that)...
and thought it would be fun for the notes.
they had several fun colors but... of course the red jumped out at me...
soooooo...
it was time to change up the ladder a bit.
why not!

she was red... now... she's awesome aqua!
gave her a whole new look i think.
it took me all of fifteen minutes... and wah lah... she's got on a fun new dress.
and i have to say... i am really digging the aqua too!

anywho...
we sure love this tradition!
simple in it's form... and yet really fun and thoughtful!
kids come up with some of the best things!


each day... everyone in our family jots down a "thankful".
it might be a hot cup of cocoa on a blistery cold day.
the shelter & roof over our heads.
the deep belly laugh that made you snort outloud.
there are so many!
just counting them... remembering them.

life can get so crazy... so hectic... especially this time of year.
we can so easily rush & huff about... been there done that...
forgetting all the good right in front of us!
all the blessings big and small.
ALL the gifts.

do tell!
do you too do a thankful of some kind?
a tradition in november to shine light on the good?
i've already heard from a few friends... letting me know they too have started.
so great!
i'd love to hear about yours too.
if you don't have one yet it's so easy to get going... and so fun.
anything works!
you can post them on your fridge...
your mantel (like a fall garland)...
hang a ribbon vertically and pin them all along.
pluck twigs from outside for a neat bucket/vase/container.
a magnetic or bulletin board.
cut out a paper wreath with your favorite pretty paper.
pin them on your hat!  :O)


i look forward to seeing the notes cover the ladder.
our hearts and eyes opening.
and remembering ALL there is for us to be thankful!

eleven...

celebratingcarissa fox25 Comments

 years of pure bliss! 

ha ha ha ha...
okay... SERIOUSLY... can we be honest here!

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marriage is one of hardest thing we have ever done!
i guess that is to be expected when you are
COMPLETE opposites from one another!
if you were to write out on a piece of paper our traits...
it would look "mathematically"...  not EVEN possible... no way... no how!
those of you that know us... can attest to that! :)

a choice... commitment... to stick together through thick & thin!
we have had a lot of thin... very thin... thin ICE!
and there have been times as though i thought we would
fall right through that ice!

i think when you bring two people together... AND their histories...
a new foundation sometimes has to be built.
at least for us... this has shown to be true...
because somewhere along the way our personal foundations formed a few cracks. 

the really GREAT thing... as we rebuild our foundations...
we are not only becoming stronger within ourselves but... stronger as a TEAM!

we know our team needs more coaching... but we are both IN IT... to WIN it!

i am SO thankful that i have a man that lOVES me...
and is WILLING to do what ever it takes to make our lives beautiful TOGETHER!   
he is a hard-working... smart as ALL get out... 
always striving for the next level... well respected... funny...
awesome MAN and FATHER!
  
so to him i say...
hAppY AnniVeRsAry!
i love you
&
look forward to what the NEXT eleven years bring! 
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he always gives me tulips on this day...
they are what i carried on our wedding day... my FAVORITE flower for sure!

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the girlies dressed "us" special for the day... don't we look lovely! :)

3-7-09 anniversary
they even made us cards!   

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so tonight... we'll be toasting with a REALLY nice bottle of red wine... 
and reminiscing about the last eleven years... like when he had hair & i had a waist!