brown eyed fox

pile of good lessons

buildingcarissa fox19 Comments

house sketch

it almost doesn't seem real.
like it hasn't happened yet.
or it did... but just wasn't quite the experience we thought it would be.
yeah that.

i thought i'd get the "ugly" out first...
out of the way.
done.
it's taken me... since before we moved in... until now... to LET IT GO.
and Lord knows i still have my days.

i know lots of y'all know...
i pretty much wear everything on my sleeve...
God made me chatty & open like that...
:)
well... i want to be open just like that about our building experience.

the lessons we've learned...
they're big... they stack up deep... as far as you can see.
and just that...
they are lessons!
many uncomfortable... joyful... downright painful...
but oh hOw thankful we are to have experienced it ALL.

the whoo hooo jump up & down "that's exactly what i envisioned"...
"not sure i like that... could we try this instead?"...
"what in the world was he thinking?"...
"where IS our builder anyway?"...
oh the color choices...
"what in the world was i thinking?"...
who knew white could have so many shades...
tears...
waiting...
promises broken...
blue tape everywhere...
ummm... "i wish i would have chosen the other"...
workers up in our hair nine months after we moved in...
still finishing... or nOT...
sadness...
happiness...
gut wrenching disappointment...
frustration...
anger...
triumph...
lessons.

we can't go back...
switch things around...
choose someone else...
make it how it was supposed to be... make it "perfect"...
like my hubby always says "it is what it is".

from the wise words of the nester...
"it doesn't have to be perfect to be beautiful".
i remind OCD self that all the time.
:)
it helps.

you know she's right.
it doesn't have to be perfect.
thank goodness!
perfect is way too hard to dO & bE anyway!

with our building experience...
we might not be able to change much of the "wrong" that was done...
but by golly we can move forward & continue making it our home...
make it beautiful.

we're together...
healthy...
happy...
BLESSED !

i imagine as i jump back into this blogging thing...
i'll have to jump around a bit...
so much has happened!
my goodness... i was scrolling through my iphone clicks from the last year...
it was enough to make me cry.
and realize i really wish i would have kept up.
oh looky there... another lesson.
:)
i'm learning lOts lately!

house
now we get to actually walk through the sketched door.
how cool is that.
that door (more on that later) is for sure a favorite!

this was our first drawing to tangible house we've built.
and after all the roller coaster hoopla...
i think we'd do it all over again.
ha!
after all... we've got all those learned lessons piled up.