brown eyed fox

perfect protest

feeling, sharingcarissa fox16 Comments

let me start by saying...
i am not even going to try to lie & say i am not a perfectionist.
i strive to be.
look at that...
“i strive to be”...
that sounds awful.
i admit it though... i like things just so.

truth of the matter...
things are NOT just so...
and i am FAR from perfect!

i want my twenty something body back.
i want my eyes back... stolen from these things called lids.
i want elasticity back... period!
i want to change my past.
i want a clean house... all the time.
i want to be a better mom.
a better daughter.
a better wife.
better friend.
i want to be in control.

try as i might though...
i can not turn back the clock...
my lids have taken over.
i can not change what has already happened but...
i can CHOOSE to forgive & move forward.
i may not always make pancakes for breakfast but...
i make SURE they know just how much i love them.

i am learning more with each day....
trying...
with each day....
that it’s okay to LET GO of that need to control...
to have things JUST so.
let go of that unobtainable goal of perfection.
that it’s OKAY to embrace WHERE i am...
WHO i am...
to embrace this IMPERFECT me!

that balance beam of juggling this and juggling that...
so it all stays in order...
is exhausting!
like being on a treadmill with no off switch...
you want to jump off but you feel you can’t.


if i am always struggling to get to that cloud of perfection...
that unobtainable cloud...
i just might miss catching flight on a pair of really beautiful wings.

if i am always looking elsewhere for who i THINK i should be...
i might miss seeing who is ALREADY there... right there... inside me.

i am blessed!
i am as determined as they come.
i am a survivor of more than one of life’s “battles”.
i am a fighter!
a believer.
i am loyal until the end.
i am a pretty darn good ME!

the discovery is the interesting part.
by opening ourselves... we risk being hurt...
BUT...
by opening ourselves... we allow our souls to take flight.

yes...
LEARNING to embrace...
being ME!
FAR from perfect...
AND THAT’S OKAY!

Brené Brown is having a “perfect protest" this week.
when i saw it i thought...
“i’m IN... that’s perfect for me!”  :O)

in great timing too...
her new book... THE GIFTS of Imperfection... arrived at my door yesterday.
and i thought her first book had an impact!

i look forward to digging in...
learning more about “letting go of who i think i’m supposed to be”...
and embracing who i am.
care to join me?  
us?
on this adventure?
of letting go & grabbing a hold?